I've been making games on my own consistently for a little over a year now. I used to make games with friends in high school and middle school, but I never finished anything until I started working on my own. I have always wanted to make video games for as long as I can remember, but through the years my confidence in abilities have kept me from actually perusing my goals. I partially never made games because of this stigma where I thought the games I made had to have a specific level of quality or something, it was a fear of not knowing how to program at all and being intimidated by coding languages and different software. This fear is a different fear that I think some of the friends that I worked on games with had. Most of them did not want to waste time working on games if they didn't get some sort of reward after like being able to sell the game or have some sort of wide recognition for making the game. I have always felt that because there are so many people in the world and on the internet that do or make anything (and a lot of those who make games) that expecting recognition is an almost futile effort and an effort that is earned in plenty of failure like any other activity that humans do.

Anyways, since I started using GM and KnP and MMF2 my life has improved in the way that now I am making video games and that part of my life has been fulfilled to some extent, however I have learned just making games is not enough in a way. I have come across different obstacles like, "I want to be making games basically all the time instead of just in my free time but not work in the games industry", "I want to make very large scale games, but I feel like I don't have the time to do so", "I don't know how to really program very much", and "I would like to make games, but not sell them".

My questions to you is what do you do for a living and would you ever want to work in the games industry, and if you don't why?

Great Opinion and Speculation also Introspection, no Questions are Answered, only Asked:

So, I have been making, like, 3-4 games for the past few months and haven't really released anything because I'm not using the "gusto" that is required to be a glorioustrainwrecker. But, is gusto related to speed? I think it is. Speed shows confidence. It seems ironic or coincidental (lol) that I am nervous about making a trainwreck. Is this going to be a so good it's bad trainwreck or a so bad it's good one or is it going to be a it's a bad BAD trainwreck. What is good and bad?

"It's all in the eye of the beholder", lol, what a cliche, but (let's get back to the point) we all know what is culturally "good" and culturally "bad". Because I am making games on this site, you the reader is probably making games on this site, we are aware, yes, this is where bad/good things should be, this is the house in which trainwrecks sleep, this is the context of the things we are making and the house gives us that context. This context is what separates "genuine failure" from what happens here. Does this box limit us? It is freeing and limiting at the same time. One side says everything bad that you do will be in the context of "it's supposed to be bad", so nothing is bad. On another side if you do something good will it be good? Depends on the context, what is good? Will genuine good weaken intended bad? Will unintended bad weaken intended bad? What is good on www.theglorioustrainwrecks.com and what is good outside of www.theglorioustrainwrecks.com? Are they the same good? Is good outside of www.theglorioustrainwrecks.com good on www.theglorioustrainwrecks.com?

It seems "good" on www.theglorioustrainwrecks.com is usually "bad". "Bad" comes in several different forms. One form is a self aware "stupid" (when the game is disguised as if the person making the game is not aware of the cultural mainstream of what "good" games are) I.E. games in the Mr. Cat series. Another form is a clear parody of a mainstream trope I.E. games by sylvie and jams like the Flappy Bird Jam. The third kind is an "I don't care attitude" I.E. Klik of the Month Klub games. These different perspectives for the makers of "good" on www.theglorioustrainwrecks.com can and usually are mixed at different levels to create interest.

Do "bad" games have to be jokes to be good. Are "bad" games with "intended badness" automatically jokes. Should everything that is "bad" be laughed at? Are there "serious" and "bad" games on this site or elsewhere? Why don't my hotlinks to www.theglorioustrainwrecks.com work?

Ode to Zone Runner. With ooouuuttttliiiinneees. And bad animation. Also uses slightly irritating/unfitting stock samples from the TGF libraries. Just like the original!

I started this for the KotM #33, but didn't get finished. So I decided to go over the two hour period to bring you this.

There are ten levels in total: nine normal levels, and one boss(!!!) level. Most of the stages are designed to be quite daunting, and they also poke fun at some of the design flaws and eccentricities in the Zone Runner games. You get unlimited lives since some stages are a bit... unfair.

Made in MMF2. Needs DirectX 8 hardware acceleration to run. And 1280x800 resolution or higher.

Don't worry, Circy. You're still an awesome guy.

Felt like making this, dunno why. About a hundred instances of El Loco Dumas (Yellow Runner) jog across your screen while pulsing up and down to upbeat music and a seizure-inducing background. Requires hardware-accelerated DirectX 8 and a screen resolution over 1280x800. If too many people are on cobweb-collecting antiques can't run the demo, guess I'll upload a less extravagant software-rendered version. Made using MMF2.

P.S. Hold Spacebar for more Dumas (over 500!).

Edit: Holy crap, the image is so wide that it breaks the layout. Oops.